Walls.

Alone I have withdrawn – once again – into my cage.
Silently the walls scream at me. Different voices from
different angles saying things that were supposed to
make sense.

If you jump you best jump far.

I read their words but they have lost all meaning
somewhere through time and space. And so the
walls become what they are in the first place.
Thresholds to a world they have forced upon me.

I see the smoke. I smell the fires.
What the hell are we waiting for?

Inside those walls and far away I have settled into
my universe. A universe devoid of stars, gathering
dust and mildew.

Sink or swim.

Here in this universe on my black planet I am
observing my insides and outside. But what I
see angers me resulting in a sad confusion. I am
failing to understand. Squinting, I am trying
hard to see something to clinch to.

and how I wish…

“You know, these things happen.” She says and
– although I know she knows better – I can feel
her guilt. “Yes.” I say. Taking what is hers and
smiling into the abyss.

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